perfectionist totally entitled
Ultra Üye
Before I start I would like to read about your story so don't be shy about posting it on this thread
flashback : 2021/August or September not really sure, I posted couple of things about starting out cheat development and pursing my old passions.
So its 2023 now and I finally decided to come back and summarize how things went and probably read your thoughts about it (Probably there's a chance that people will read it and give their opinions and feed my inquisitiveness)
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After posting these things spontaneously I was really motivated and really driven which helped me in the short-term but that didn't last for long.
relying on motivation was a huge mistake that I made but thank God I overcame my old mindset and got to the point where I questioned myself, Do I really wanna do it?
Sure, that's what I want but is it something that I'm ready to spend my short life on?
(Some of you would think that I'm just overthinking it but that's not the case because from my perspective If I wanted to commit to cheat development then I should dedicate my life to it no matter what cuz I wanna be good at it not just intermediate)
But wait a minute, Don't I have studies to worry about? yes I can balance my life to do both but gotta focus on one thing to get the best result out of it.
Conclusion: I chose studying rather than messing around with "c++" and ended up getting the 2nd place on my school (gotta flex little bit) and then passed that grade easily
And now I'm in my last grade (Still in high school)
demonstration of what that means : Last grade usually means the grade that your whole future depends on because your grades will decide which university you can go to and what specialization you will be taking.
So now that I feel like an arrogant because I get high grades without being a tryhard I decided to stop studying for some reason and just learn some extra stuff about what I want to become.
I saw that everything looks kinda pointless at the moment because I didn't really pick my major yet, Looked back in time and finally remembered why I'm doing this in the first place
When I chose studies I chose it to be educated, And to be well-informed about many topics, Chose it for my intuition!
my mindset couple of months ago :
But what kind of education I'm looking for?
I stopped studying I'm not even looking forward for some fkin "high grades" why would I even care anymore? I'm not interested anymore etc... (No exaggeration)
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And now after passing the semi-final or mid term exams with high grades I got back on track after succumbing to feeling nostalgia because of those reminiscences that I had about my old passion (Development, specifically cheat development).
My high grades allow me to basically pick almost any specialization that I want and I'm kinda confused about picking a major that is associated to cheat development.
I don't really know much about these things but I have considered computer science and also not forgetting computer engineering. (I would like to read about your opinions and your guidance about this)
Any thoughts of a major like the one I'm looking for?
(Any advices even though I know what I'm doing I just wanted to share my story?)
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but with this aside I feel like its a bit late for me to start (I'm almost 19) and I won't start till I finish my last grade so that will be an extra year, Its a bit late isn't it?
and yea I know that its a mess maybe the events sequence a bit off but I still want you to share your thoughts I'm open to read about everything and also I skipped a lot of parts and didn't elaborate my mindset and say what I was thinking of.
because I haven't mastered English yet and I still lack thinking ability when it comes to this language so I might sound stupid to you but not in my native language.
Have a good day.
(shared this story on other forums but ended up getting naive comments except for couple of them)
flashback : 2021/August or September not really sure, I posted couple of things about starting out cheat development and pursing my old passions.
So its 2023 now and I finally decided to come back and summarize how things went and probably read your thoughts about it (Probably there's a chance that people will read it and give their opinions and feed my inquisitiveness)
--
After posting these things spontaneously I was really motivated and really driven which helped me in the short-term but that didn't last for long.
relying on motivation was a huge mistake that I made but thank God I overcame my old mindset and got to the point where I questioned myself, Do I really wanna do it?
Sure, that's what I want but is it something that I'm ready to spend my short life on?
(Some of you would think that I'm just overthinking it but that's not the case because from my perspective If I wanted to commit to cheat development then I should dedicate my life to it no matter what cuz I wanna be good at it not just intermediate)
But wait a minute, Don't I have studies to worry about? yes I can balance my life to do both but gotta focus on one thing to get the best result out of it.
Conclusion: I chose studying rather than messing around with "c++" and ended up getting the 2nd place on my school (gotta flex little bit) and then passed that grade easily
And now I'm in my last grade (Still in high school)
demonstration of what that means : Last grade usually means the grade that your whole future depends on because your grades will decide which university you can go to and what specialization you will be taking.
So now that I feel like an arrogant because I get high grades without being a tryhard I decided to stop studying for some reason and just learn some extra stuff about what I want to become.
I saw that everything looks kinda pointless at the moment because I didn't really pick my major yet, Looked back in time and finally remembered why I'm doing this in the first place
When I chose studies I chose it to be educated, And to be well-informed about many topics, Chose it for my intuition!
my mindset couple of months ago :
But what kind of education I'm looking for?
I stopped studying I'm not even looking forward for some fkin "high grades" why would I even care anymore? I'm not interested anymore etc... (No exaggeration)
------
And now after passing the semi-final or mid term exams with high grades I got back on track after succumbing to feeling nostalgia because of those reminiscences that I had about my old passion (Development, specifically cheat development).
My high grades allow me to basically pick almost any specialization that I want and I'm kinda confused about picking a major that is associated to cheat development.
I don't really know much about these things but I have considered computer science and also not forgetting computer engineering. (I would like to read about your opinions and your guidance about this)
Any thoughts of a major like the one I'm looking for?
(Any advices even though I know what I'm doing I just wanted to share my story?)
--------------------
but with this aside I feel like its a bit late for me to start (I'm almost 19) and I won't start till I finish my last grade so that will be an extra year, Its a bit late isn't it?
and yea I know that its a mess maybe the events sequence a bit off but I still want you to share your thoughts I'm open to read about everything and also I skipped a lot of parts and didn't elaborate my mindset and say what I was thinking of.
because I haven't mastered English yet and I still lack thinking ability when it comes to this language so I might sound stupid to you but not in my native language.
Have a good day.
(shared this story on other forums but ended up getting naive comments except for couple of them)
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